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Ok so yeah I have had a long progression form the person I was in september when I thought me was vaguely within perfect to the person I am now, a much (self-perceived) better person. I haven't gotten invvolved in any drama, nor do i have any wish to get involved with other peoples obssive personalities (obsessive in the you must hurt, you must feel worse than me way).
The person I now perceive me to be is a happier individual, smiling on buses is a fairly good indicator of a change in me. I feel centred and peaceful, which is a great place to have gotten me into. I was talikng to a friend and commented about the past and now I think about it my evolved philosophy of it has been what is putting me in a happier safer mental space.
The philosophy being thus; "Sometimes the past is a country best left off of future itineries, and it is certainly not a country best lived in." I have lived in the past far too much, I have lived in the moment the past month, I don't want to go back. I learn the lessons, I keep said lessons in mind for the future but, I don't need to live them over and over again like a badly made, poorly scripted version of Groundhog Day!
Regretting anything means that you are living at the moment you are regretting and not learning any form of a lesson. You're holding onto the negative energy of the situation an that is a horrific thing to do to your soul. (No not in any form of a religious way, I haven't jumped off the deep end yet.) so... peaceful and calm, not to say I don't get upset or panicy or heck worried. But it is no way on the scale as once was and it is something I can joke about and is on a level where I don't get emotional and I don't have to express it and can keep it to me.
Uni seems to beg going well, strike notwithstanding. I have a ton of idea's for my university work and am tempted to have a linked to LJ for it, thoughts on movies/ television I see for my final year project. My final year project is basically on gender and the way women are presented in Sci-fi. I would love to compare and contrast using some form of feminist theory and qualtative analysis.
The big deal I have noticed is hollywood in terms of television is less coservative than in movies compare Sam Carter of Stargate SG-1 and then compare it with Alice in Resident Evil. Both strong representations of women, both highly capable. However the divergence is in film the woman is dressed in clothes most 10 cent hookers would say were revealing, same goes for Lara Croft and Tomb Raider. In the case of Sam Carter she is a soldier and an astrophysicist. So that is super smart and a kick ass woman, already out doing Alice, though not so much Lara, then she is a soldier, I think That beats a female Indy Jones hands down. ---- And hey, do not even get me started on Joss Whedon's female characterisations.
I could be quite at the moment pissed at NATFHE as they are still at strike and exams start in 1 or 2 weeks from now, one university already looking at lawyers marking law students papers. Oh the goodness of that move! There are so many derisive comments I could makebut they aren't worth it. i am just so drained about it all.
I have been busy though writing an essay plan, though not in the past 2 days just been off the boil and my brain more into drooling over men in sci-fi (I am a sick little girl I really am.)
I did a couple nights ago write fan fiction - the following has been cut because i know some people hate fan fiction and therefore I will not offend their eyes further.
( Read more... )
So yeah this is me right now, and I really don't want to go to bed. But yet i have to go to uni to get a vague idea of my results of an essay I doubt I get better than a third. Everyone has said it was relevant to the question, but I just don't think I got a good grade. I never get them, especially when I work outrageously hard.
Night all.
p.s. all is well with me and Mike, I am seeing him july all things going well.
The person I now perceive me to be is a happier individual, smiling on buses is a fairly good indicator of a change in me. I feel centred and peaceful, which is a great place to have gotten me into. I was talikng to a friend and commented about the past and now I think about it my evolved philosophy of it has been what is putting me in a happier safer mental space.
The philosophy being thus; "Sometimes the past is a country best left off of future itineries, and it is certainly not a country best lived in." I have lived in the past far too much, I have lived in the moment the past month, I don't want to go back. I learn the lessons, I keep said lessons in mind for the future but, I don't need to live them over and over again like a badly made, poorly scripted version of Groundhog Day!
Regretting anything means that you are living at the moment you are regretting and not learning any form of a lesson. You're holding onto the negative energy of the situation an that is a horrific thing to do to your soul. (No not in any form of a religious way, I haven't jumped off the deep end yet.) so... peaceful and calm, not to say I don't get upset or panicy or heck worried. But it is no way on the scale as once was and it is something I can joke about and is on a level where I don't get emotional and I don't have to express it and can keep it to me.
Uni seems to beg going well, strike notwithstanding. I have a ton of idea's for my university work and am tempted to have a linked to LJ for it, thoughts on movies/ television I see for my final year project. My final year project is basically on gender and the way women are presented in Sci-fi. I would love to compare and contrast using some form of feminist theory and qualtative analysis.
The big deal I have noticed is hollywood in terms of television is less coservative than in movies compare Sam Carter of Stargate SG-1 and then compare it with Alice in Resident Evil. Both strong representations of women, both highly capable. However the divergence is in film the woman is dressed in clothes most 10 cent hookers would say were revealing, same goes for Lara Croft and Tomb Raider. In the case of Sam Carter she is a soldier and an astrophysicist. So that is super smart and a kick ass woman, already out doing Alice, though not so much Lara, then she is a soldier, I think That beats a female Indy Jones hands down. ---- And hey, do not even get me started on Joss Whedon's female characterisations.
I could be quite at the moment pissed at NATFHE as they are still at strike and exams start in 1 or 2 weeks from now, one university already looking at lawyers marking law students papers. Oh the goodness of that move! There are so many derisive comments I could makebut they aren't worth it. i am just so drained about it all.
I have been busy though writing an essay plan, though not in the past 2 days just been off the boil and my brain more into drooling over men in sci-fi (I am a sick little girl I really am.)
I did a couple nights ago write fan fiction - the following has been cut because i know some people hate fan fiction and therefore I will not offend their eyes further.
( Read more... )
So yeah this is me right now, and I really don't want to go to bed. But yet i have to go to uni to get a vague idea of my results of an essay I doubt I get better than a third. Everyone has said it was relevant to the question, but I just don't think I got a good grade. I never get them, especially when I work outrageously hard.
Night all.
p.s. all is well with me and Mike, I am seeing him july all things going well.
