Feeling better

For a while I have been nervous talking to my boyfrien. and it is an old issue, that what i say could make the guy dump me.

Well tonight I talked to one of my ex's.

I asked the questions

Has there been any STD illnesses since we split?
Were you cheating?
Why did we split.

The answers were
no
no
and Dunno.

So my fears were allayed

I did say to him that part of him had made me feel that if I had said the wrong thing that I would have been dumped, he told me that that hadn't been the case, and apologised for prortraying it.

It made me think a little, and I said to my current and very loved boyfriend that this was what was going. I was afraid of what i might say. he turned around and said to me that he liked descisive women, women who knew what they wanted and got it.

So Ok I can do that, a little shift in me, but its always been the person I have wanted to be.

But the nice person i am will not be disappearing either. I just love my boyfriend.... A LOT

I have turned the corner.