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angelicalangieWe all hav them. Issues over clothing, or needs and wants. I definately have them. My issues are with university, why am I bothering with exams that won't be agreed on? and what are these extensive measures they are goiing to make. my first reaction when my expectations aren't met from people I believe to be stable is to question if everything in my life is as stable as it should be.. My father dithering over my computer has not helped and tonight it has come to a head. I had to ask for reassurance that everything would be ok if.. I got; old, ugly, wrinkled, even fatter, had kids, lived in shitty accomodation, had shitty jobs and he said Always love you.. a lot of my far left and a lot of tears replaced that.
I shouldn't doubt everyone's intentions, I should feel scared about my future to the degree that I question my personal life. Yet because, whilst having some outstanding plans, I can not bank on a future with the current university. I can not even bank on a future with any university and as for the intensifying of industrial action, what does this mean? What action are they about to take that is going to impinge on my future.
everyone inmy life is suffering cause this is something that has made me feel anxious, scared, angry, insecure and completely out of control. I don't like feeling this. i know I get stressed about exams, this is worse. I am already at repeats. I can not fail. I don't know how well i did in my coursework so i can not relax an inch and the tension is killer for me. I hope I can survive it. I know that it will make me strong but it is hurting me and others around nme as I am acting out to save having a nervous breakdown (Maybe I am having one anyhow)
An old friend turned up online today with the promise of my communication the last time he did it me and rich broke up a week later. i don't see it happening again (God I hope not) but I do feel as though i am standing on a trap door never the feeling one wants. On way or another its nice to hear from him, its been a while. I still have his boxset!!!
I shouldn't doubt everyone's intentions, I should feel scared about my future to the degree that I question my personal life. Yet because, whilst having some outstanding plans, I can not bank on a future with the current university. I can not even bank on a future with any university and as for the intensifying of industrial action, what does this mean? What action are they about to take that is going to impinge on my future.
everyone inmy life is suffering cause this is something that has made me feel anxious, scared, angry, insecure and completely out of control. I don't like feeling this. i know I get stressed about exams, this is worse. I am already at repeats. I can not fail. I don't know how well i did in my coursework so i can not relax an inch and the tension is killer for me. I hope I can survive it. I know that it will make me strong but it is hurting me and others around nme as I am acting out to save having a nervous breakdown (Maybe I am having one anyhow)
An old friend turned up online today with the promise of my communication the last time he did it me and rich broke up a week later. i don't see it happening again (God I hope not) but I do feel as though i am standing on a trap door never the feeling one wants. On way or another its nice to hear from him, its been a while. I still have his boxset!!!
